I didn't make it into the water at all this week - no ocean, not even a pool swim. Big changes are happening in mine and Matt's lives and they have demanded all of our time and attention.
After the last couple of weeks of feeling stronger and stronger in the ocean, Matt and I thought it would be fun to try to complete an ice mile. The International Ice Swimming Association approves each application and it is quite the feather in a cold swimmer's cap. I was very excited about this, especially since I am so goal oriented.
So when it first became clear that my swimming time would be severely compromised I had a brief internal struggle. I didn't want to give up the chance to complete this swim. I had done something this winter that I was proud of. I had swum skin in increasingly colder water and weathered the coldest it got - 5 C - making it through until the water started to warm up. I wanted to finish this. I wanted to swim an ice mile.
But I have learned over the years that fighting against circumstances so much larger than yourself always ends up being negative, wanting something you can't have just makes you unhappy. So I gave in gracefully. Sometimes you just gotta focus on the big picture.
I have given up my chance to complete an ice mile this year but in the end, it's OK. Bigger adventures await. Much, much bigger!